Let's pray.. and thanks

After getting results, i told my friends that i die die must retake english and maths. Then days after, my mummy keep on telling me "What's the point re-taking?" For my long term of course! "People don't look at your O levels cert, people look at your diploma cert!" Fine, so i want to take poly courses and retake my english and maths. Then dominic came and talk to me "Why don't just submit JAE and if unsuccessful, you still got your plan B of retaking O levels" Fine, so last 2 nights, i settled my JAE form. Guess what? I only filled up 3 out of 12 choices that they gave me. Then yesterday, mummy asked "Why are you so dumb to fill up 3 courses?" I say, i'm not interested the rest of the courses. Then she said "Why don't you go private school?" Like? "SIM, MDIS, NAFA..etc.." Then i flipped on the new paper that given to us during the result day and i saw those private school. MDIS got my god damn course! Then she said something touching for me "I won't mind spending money on you going to private school and take a course that you like and you must go university after that" Wow, mummy! You're generous!

Family does play a part in my life a lot, friends too. What i'm trying to say is, family won't look down on you, good friends will help you to sort a way out. O levels screwed, it's ok! There're lots of alternatives to walk! Yes, i know! It's not the end after all! At the beginning when i saw my terrible results, i do not know how to face people. People around me are like genius! O levels scored like so many fucking As! Me? Not a single A at all. It's really depressing when my own family member which is my sister who scored 3 times better than my result, it's so embarrassing!

When i told them my result, i was really glad that they were by my side. My sister who's in India called me. When i told her my results, she didn't scold me like "Why are you so dumb? Score such a terrible result" She just comfort me and she help me find alternative ways to move on with my life.

During the results, i got so many sms-es, phone calls, msn, anxiously to know my result. All i replied " terrible, don't ask my points " People who know my points said " Okay what, not that terrible " But, i really expected really better results than this! Especially my english! English is like my 1st language and what! I scored !@#@$# !!!! Even my chinese fared better than my english! Oh fuck! People all stunned that my english was $#$#^ !!! Sigh, i don't know what to say. But, they still helped me, giving me lots of advices! Telling me not to give up. I'm touched, really touched by their words.

People who are like, not related to O levels, guide me a lot. At the begining, i don't even know what's JAE, DAE, blah blah blah! I just keep on asking people. I don't know about courses, they go to search engine and find me all kinds of website to tell me what's going to be like about this courses. Sometimes, i feel like they are the ones taking results, not me. They search for me, i just click and say, " EEEK, yucky course " or " Hmm.. not bad " Miak and dominic had conference to chose courses that suitable for me. Frankly, many courses i like was rejected by them. They will say " Are you sure you want to take this course, this course have no future " or " Yes, this might be a good competitive course, however when you go to society, this job is tough" or even "This course doesn't even suit your character and worse, you might get cheated!" How sad uh? That's why, i only have 3 choices only! But only 1 that i really like it a lot. I don't know whether i'm selected and i have friends who already telling me that they will help me with the interview. When i told my friends that i need a tutor, many find links for me and some willing to teach me.

Seriously, i'm really touched. People who by my side, comfort me, guiding me, helping with my courses, really thank you a lot! =)

I am going to say out the names! WAHAHA! Though what i said above seems to be thousands of people, but it's just only a few. I hope i can remember the names.

My wonderful 3 pals: Tan, Ong and Toh

Tan willing to go open house with me, find private schools, finding all the moe stuffs, thanks a lot.
Ong who sms-ed me and asked me whether i am alright because she said that i cried so badly till she want to hug me and cry too. HAHA. Thanks.
Toh who messaged the 3 of us not to be too depressed and very soon, we will go for our majong session again. Thanks.

Khadijah, my bitch who help me to ask her sister, her friend, her boyfriend, her whatever, don't know about the private schools. Thanks.

Damin, baowen and sheryl who stayed by my side, comforting me. I don't know how to express my gratitude to them but really, thanks a lot.

My family who is very supportive about my decision.

Eileen, JAC, chion, estelle, nicolas, evelyn, dominic, watson, shirley, mark, weiling, liyi, peiling, auntie wong and mr stanley lim for helping to dig up informations, telling me what are the courses and advising me.

My classmates: Teck zhi - Willing to be my maths tutor, Sheng Yao - talk about the courses and thomas - crap with me at night

Guan rong, shafiq and xinyun - thanks for your greatest concern.

Zixian for saying "Don't sink the boat lah, i will mend the hole for you" Thanks my BFF.

And should be more.. but i can't remember well. Right now is in the simpsons mode!

THE SIMPSONS!