Because...

"If it's a broken part, replace it.
If it's a broken arm then brace it.
If it's a broken heart then face it."

Coded from Jason Mraz ft James Morrison lyrics: Details in the Fabric

Shattered: The one and only word.
( Neither i want to G.U nor end this way )

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I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

Coded from Mariah Carey's lyrics: bye bye

Frankly speaking, at first when i heard this song from the MTV, i was thinking "Ahya, Mariah Carey's songs always so cheesy about love life. What's so great about her songs?"
Just now, when surfing youtube, i just happen to click her bye bye MTV. Before listening to her music, i read comments below the video and everyone who put down their comments were all delicating to their loved ones who passed away or they will say something like "while listening to Mariah Carey's bye bye, i'm choked with tears."

All right, what's so touching about this song uh? So i decided to find the lyrics and listen to it attentively every single word.
At the beginning of the song, it started off delicating to everyone who have lost their loved ones. ( Then i thought of my dad )
The R&B beats make the lyrics go smoothly. I'm sure people who lost their loved ones felt touched by the lyrics especially the chorus part. The words that i highlighted to red were those that made me emotional.

Really, i miss my dad alot. Although sometimes, i and him were loggerheads because i really could not tolerate his naggingness. Forever repeating the same old words " Study is the most important thing in our life..." Whatever he said, i could imitate instantly. I could predict what he gonna say for each and every word.

I recalled, the day before he passed away in the afternoon. As per normal. It was on the friday and i had day 2 motivational workshop. He woke up early as normal to iron my uniform and waited for me to leave the house before he go to bed and grap some sleep before going to work. That particular morning, i remembered carefully. I was quite tired after the first day of motivational workshop and i slept late because of blogging for the motivational workshop. So morning, easily get agitated due to lack of sleep. Then before i left for school, my dad told me "Today i'm going to collect jiejie's laptop!" And he was still as energetic as ever and gave me a stupid look on his face. I was irrtated and replied in a rude tune "Why are you telling me for? " Before he could say anything, i closed the door and rushed for school. I never know that this will be the last conversation with my dad.

Day 2 motivational workshop was a success. I was totally into it. Just that happened during lunch break (Around the time he had heart attacked ), i got a bad hunch without realising. While eating, i bite my lips. It was super painful. Worst, i never expect to bite again right at the same spot again. Well, unlucky? Normally my phone would be with me. But it was just so coincidence that i left my phone in my bag while i'm in my room. In the room, while the talk, i bite the same spot again. AH, worst. Injury bigger! ( around the time that the doctor pronounced him ... ) Bad bad instinct! I still did not realise and having lots of fun in the room. Chicken- dancing, watching videos, very motivated to do well in my studies.. till 6pm when the course almost over. Intended to take 5NA photos then i got a phone call not from my phone but my friend's phone. Passed the phone to me and moo did not know how to break the unbelievable-news to me. So asked me to check my phone instead.

I was still in a high mood and a little puzzled about it. So i went to check my phone. First thing i saw on my phone tons and tons of missed calls from people who had difficulties contacting me. Before i could see all, my neighbour's maid called me and screamed at the phone " LIMIN, YOUR FATHER IS DEAD! " First reaction, "UHHHHH????!!!!!" Then i walked further from the crowd, then i was still uh-ing, asking whether is this early april's fool joke! Then the maid "REALLY, YOUR PAPA HAD A HEART ATTACK AND HE PASSED AWAY!" Tears flowed down but still at the confusion state, " UH?! " Then she said "FASTER GO TO HOSPITAL NOW!" Then hang up the phone, i was at a shocking state then i walked to my friends, they asked me "What happen?" Then i just totally collapsed and cried "My papa passed away!" All their reactions the same " UH?!?! "

I really could not accept the fact that he passed away so quickly! He looked alright to me. He did weight-lifting at home, watch taiwan political news... he looked so PINK OF HEALTH! Then now, he's gone! He surprised everyone! Well, god called for him. At least, he did not suffered so much. He was a happy man. I missed his-so-not-funny-jokes. It's so true that people tend to appreciate only after their loved ones left this world and sadly to say, i'm one of them.

I'm such a ungrateful girl. :(

Life got to move on uh? Everything is fine. Right now, i should focus on exams! I got a dream! To become a rich tai-tai! HAHA! ( A dream that will never happen in my life ) :)

It must be weird that i only blog this incident only after months. All thanks to that song lah! Made me reminiscence! Lalalala~